Most days.

When you enter into something again with the promise that you are here for good, you stay. Even if it means sifting through some hard things.  Some uncomfortable conversations or positions as to not fall back into old routines.  

When someone breaks that trust. I don't think there is ever a way to go back. How do you trust that someone won't walk away again the next time they feel overwhelmed or frustrated? How do you know they won't check out for days when you have a family together? How can you trust they'll be there in your times of need? Of struggle? Who wants that grey? That in between of who knows if someone will love them that day? Or rather. Love them enough? Reliability and security is a big part of trust.  And if you don't  have those two components you'll never make it. 

Do what you said you'd do, even on the rainy days. Not some days. Not when it's easy. Not when it's convenient. Do it when it's hard. When it's most needed. And that is true change.   Asking someone who is telling you that they want to spend the rest of their life with you to communicate with you when you disagree on something is not trying to control the other person.  Asking someone to communicate in a healthy way with you rather than sending an abrupt minimal text message, or storming out on a conversation while yelling or swearing at someone -is not controlling someone.  It is simply asking the person you care about to walk together with you in a healthy way,  rather than avoiding, blaming, ignoral and intentionally hurting someone.  If you mirror the love that you give to one another,  then you should always be walking toward each other in a healthy way.   In the words of Andrea Gibson   " i'm never going to make you wait that extra 20 minutes,  when I know your life has been hard already "  

Relationships are hard. Trust is hard. Doing what you said is hard. But it's worth it. Oh boy is it worth it. Love is not conditional. You can't just love someone "most days".  Love is everyday and somedays its not kisses and flowers. It's staying and talking. Its losing sleep because she's sick. It's showing up. It's change. Sometimes love looks a little different. But it should always be there. Always. To the moon and back right? Pinky Promise? 

Love is an action word. What do your actions say about you on the bad days? The struggling days?  And how do you come back after you let someone down? Do you show up? Or run further?